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How To Make It Not About Me: Week 1 Reflections

9/2/2013

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This post started on Friday with my frustration on not having a working classroom community already. I know, for many of you, having 33 students in a class no big thing-- in fact, for people like Crystal, that would be a godsend. But for me, it’s the biggest class I’ve ever taught.

It’s 4th period, the end of the day, and there are just a lot of kids in a small-ish space. It was the first week, we were all exhausted, the AC was broken at the school on Friday, and the class felt like it was fracturing into a million pieces. These are honors-level kids, so they have more patience than a lot of HS Ss would, but they still have their issues. They are still 16 and impatient. They are still very interested in grades and not so interested in learning anything, and they still equate “I learned a lot” with “I was very entertained by my teacher’s lecture and he gave me an A.”  

Confession for the day: I struggle with making a space for whole-group discussions in my class that aren’t centered on me.

I know that’s weird, because I talk about community and relationships all the time... but as I learn more about myself and start to do things in my classes more intentionally and less haphazardly, I am finding that my strength is building 1-to-1 relationships between teacher and student, primarily through individualized commentary on essays and other classwork.  And if the only sustainable, solid relationships in the class are between me and individual students, that's still a very teacher-centered classroom--because if I'm not there or I'm not on my game that day, class falls apart. 

So now, the next step is trying to build a whole class culture where students can talk to each other as humans, and not just to me. I want a class that will run like clockwork whether I'm there or not--I don't want it to be predicated on me as the center point. My challenge is teaching them to facilitate discussions that I don’t need to be a part of, because we can’t really do a good English flipclass without both threads in place: true student-centered classrooms demand that the kids have good relationships with the teacher, certainly; but they also have to be able to talk to each other.  

Thankfully, as with seemingly everything in our collaborative partnership, Cheryl has far less practice in 1-to-1, individualized instruction, but is a grandmaster at leading whole class conversations. People who know us from the #flipclass chat will notice that we divide the moderation responsibilities up according to our strengths: she asks the questions and monitors the big picture/conversation arc; I spend my time interacting with individuals directly and bringing them into the conversation. 

But the point is that building a classroom culture in a room with that many kids is really difficult for me. They are still stuck in a mindset of figuring out what the teacher wants and giving it to him and getting an A is what it’s all about. But they won’t even talk to each other. We’ve tried class discussions this first week, and they have robustly failed. Class discussions so far have been pockets of Ss talking to each other and, when we’ve come together as a class, a few kids trying to get participation points slash one-up each other. There’s a lot of work to do to get them to talk TO each other instead of AT each other. 

Conversation skills aren’t about showing off. They’re about being able to look another person in the eyes and hear what they’re saying, to be able to know them well enough to have a pretty good idea what they’re not saying, and be able to build a collaborative mountaintop of ideas in that interplay. 

So here I am, at the end of the first week, scared as always that it’s not going to get there. I know it will eventually, and that it’s only one week, but we only have 85-ish more days together-- the classroom community is a sacred place to me, and the fear that we won’t get to that good place drives me every semester to find the key to unlock it. It’s a rare and beautiful thing when it happens; for me, it can never happen enough. 
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Jacki Young @TeacherCrone on Twitter
9/3/2013 07:49:24 am

Andrew, thank you so much for this post. Like you, I have never been very good at facilitating whole class discussion. One on one, great. I've always been keenly aware of this shortcoming, and have done my best to hide it from colleagues. I so admire your honesty and willingness to put yourself out there for the benefit of others. Now I'm thinking, "Whoa, if a teacher like Andrew Thomasson struggles with this same issue, then maybe it's not that uncommon, and maybe it is a personality quirk that I can overcome (for me, I'm pretty sure it's because I am highly introverted). I am curious how flipping some lessons for the first time this year will impact that. It'll give me more one on one time obviously, but it will also give me more observation time that might help me "unlock that key" you mention.
Something else I'm thinking about is giving them more small group time and change the groups' makeup each time, but, to be honest, that is a bit scary too.
Thank you Andrew and please keep writing this blog - it's wonderful!

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